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March 13th, 2011
12:31 pm - Depressed state.
I think i'm becoming the old me again.
1) Yet another sacrifices need to be made.
2) Feeling emotional all by myself (again) cause no one seem to understand.
I thought i manage to leave in late 2009 but hell, its back. Whats the point having love of your life when everything back to square one? I find it no point giving my 100% when i didnt get the same amt back. What's the point giving in when in the end my feelings and thoughts were not being heard. WHAT'S THE POINT! It may seemed like I've given up, truth is yeah im starting to. Let me do anything I want as long as I'm satisfied. I'm leaving faith to decide cause i felt that i did my best. Reflection: No POINT depending on others, I shall be independent. Period. Frankly speaking its not good an indication of independence cause I may feel that no one should ever interfere in my life. Independence=NO Government.
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February 6th, 2011
11:26 am - Sunday is never a good day cause tomorrow is MONDAY!
I can't believe it that 6 days of holidays had gone by just like that. I want more holidays please!
It's unusual for me to complain or feel the dread-ness of going to work but yeah I'm starting to feeling it now after 7 months of working. Although there is no major challenge at work, the mundane-ness and routine work makes me bored and tired of it. Well the thought of quitting is always there but I'm must consider lots lots of factors. Let me list them..
Factors to consider:
1) Easy work = Easy money
2) Highest paying job compared to private sectors
3) Work benefits such as exam leave, some company has no exam leave
4) Well paid bonuses
5) MOST IMPORTANTLY! I have my own time to revise my school work during working hours. (NO OTHER COMPANY WILL EVER ALLOW THIS)
So, in conclusion,I better stay wherever i am. Shall not push my luck to somewhere that can cause misery to my life. At least, work till my contract end in 2012.
Hmmm, next. Should I meet bf today?
YES NO?
Current Mood: awake
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January 21st, 2011
11:36 am - Back for a while!
I'm sad sad sad...
Results for first module is out!
ATTAINED A GPA OF 5
Crap shit i tell you, didn't expect it to be 5..
I better sustain my grade or improve.
Cause if I don't do well.. my GPA will drop to 4.5! HMPH!
Current Mood:  blah
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September 25th, 2010
10:24 am - Back to school!
Hello! Today is my first day in Uni.
Best Best Best..
Excited much la! weeee
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September 14th, 2010
09:57 pm - When a girl feel that a break up is just around the corner...
Was randomly surfing the net I chance upon this article which I felt some pointers are true. Enjoy, hope this helps to salvage your relationship, fellow readers.
1.) You don't go out together as often as you used to
One of the very obvious signs of a break up is the fact that you and your boyfriend do not go out together as often as you used to. This directly means that the need to stay together has reduced between the both of you.
2.) Your boyfriend does not call you as often as he used to
Has the number of calls and messages reduced over time? One of the signs of breaking up is the reduction in the number of calls and messages that are exchanged between lovers. So if you feel that this communication has reduced then you could be looking at a break-up coming up.
3.) Your boyfriend did not wish you on a special occasion
Did your boyfriend forget to wish you on a special occasion? I got to tell you here that men do tend to forget special occasions. But if your man is not the forgetful type and has wished you before without fail and is not doing so recently then there is a break-up building up somewhere.
4.) Your boyfriend does not reply to your emails instantly
Has it ever happened that you mailed or messaged your boyfriend only to receive a reply the other day with an excuse that he did not see your message so long? This is a sign that your boy friend was not very inclined to reply to your mail. One among the many signs of breaking up with boyfriend.
5.) There are other girls that he hangs out with
Does your boyfriend spend more time with other girls than you? This directly means your man is trying to send break-up signals to you.
6.) The praises and gifts have reduced
Have the praises and gifts reduced overtime? How many times does your man say that he loves you? Or that you look beautiful? Men love to praise their girl and bring her loads of goodies. So if these have reduced overtime then you know that the break up is around the corner
7.) The level of intimacy has reduced
Men show a high level of intimacy towards the girl they love. You would have noticed this initially. If you feel that the level of intimacy has lowered in any way then this is a solid sign that your boyfriend wants to break up with you.
8.) He is not bothered even if you don't call him for days together
Try not calling your boyfriend or meeting him for days together. No phones, no emails nothing. See what happens. Generally in these occasions men are the ones who come forward to find out what the issue is. But if your boy friend is simply not bothered and does not mind the long separation then this is a solid sign of breaking up.
9.) You don't feel the same with him again
When a man and woman are together there is a certain chemistry formed between them and this chemistry gives rise to a sweet feeling inside. Men feel this when they are with their girl and so do woman. So if your man does not make you feel anything inside then this is one solid breaking up sign
10.) The number of fights has increased
Guys generally have a tendency to resolve a fight, so if you and your boyfriend fight and leave for days without speaking and no one actually coming forward to resolve the situation then there is something wrong. This is a clear sign that your boyfriend is not missing you and wants to break-up
So if you think some among these 10 signs of breaking up has taken place between the both of you then you are getting there.
Reference: What do men really think.com
Current Location: home sweet home
Current Mood:  calm
Current Music: spotlight
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July 21st, 2010
08:34 pm - Hitting the big twenty soon.
I feel that my body is degenerating.
Reason because I felt a sharp pain on my back after a bone breaking task.
Cause of the pain I'm beginning to slouch every single moment which I think is very bad for the spine (duh).
Bf had his surgery early today and now he claimed that his face looks like humpty dumpty.
Cute but not funneh. heh
I can't feel the pain but i can imagine its bloodeh pain. =(
Recover soon syg! If not cannot celebrate my big twenty tau tau tau.
Anyway, school is starting real soooooon.
I'm so nervous whenever I get updates from school.
Because I think I might be attending lessons alone due to my exemptions.
Sigh, its not really a good thing to have exemptions ya?
But! mom said its an opportunity for me to make new friends.
I'm just so tired of introducing myself over and over again whenever i meet someone new.
Oh Oh BRC sent an email to arrange an interview which I think very redundant and a bit too late.
I'm already bond with a 2 yr contract and here you are inviting.
Nevertheless, I appreciate so much that I am of a certain value to your company but I shall give it a miss.
Perhaps after my contract? =X
Okay that's all tata.
Current Mood:  anxious
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July 17th, 2010
03:49 pm - What if...
What if it ends abruptly?
What if I'm not neede anymore?
What if one day all gone?
Then maybe on that day I don't have the desire to live anymore.
Current Mood:  gloomy
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July 15th, 2010
07:58 pm - Retail therapy
This time round i did it all alone. It felt great to be doing it all by myself although i do feel a lil bit lonely. But heck! I gotta do it to therapy myself after being cranky lots and lots of time and also its my birthday month so I can do whatever I want ( the only reason i can think to make it more sensible or more of a right thing to do, birthday..duh).
Oh! Speaking of birthday, what should I get for my niece? Hmmm. ( The disadvantage of sharing birthday =( )
Okay, back to the story. The master plan of shopping was to get a pair of leggings.There were lots of variety so i ended up selecting best 3. Due to lack of second opinion i ended up buying 2 pairs and a shirt. See, out of nowhere a shirt just pop out! Thanks to my fickle mindedness. After which i headed straight home.
First time in my whole entire life, Dad complain to me on trivial matters.
" You know,because of our lil monster (nephews) stayed over our house the other week, my favourite fish died. It must be due to some cardiac shock."
-_-, I'm speechless. Anyway, the moral of the story is to not let lil kids bang or knock the glass panel of the fish tank cause it might frighten the fish and resulting a cardiac shock.
NOW! I have the mood to kemas my rumah! and clear my laptop for reformat! I swear i will do it this time.
That's all folks, Night!
Current Mood:  chipper
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July 14th, 2010
11:58 pm - The true facts
When you are in a relationship, you can't continue living your life like you used to during singlehood.
Now that you have a partner, everything will come in pairs.
So it's more of a teamwork to make it happen rather than a one man show.
Love by yours truly.
Current Mood:  crappy
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08:38 pm - Packed schedule
Suddenly our workload became so much within an hour. Thank you so much luh for sending in practical request which can make us slog our ass for next 3 weeks. Packed! Jam Packed like crazy. Bleargh. So far started out with 259 bottles and more to go, Jia you Nadiah. Oh I just dont like insecure people. Seriously, lack of confidence in oneself. Like I said in my previous FB status. Only an insecure person will not trust people and thus you are actually unaware of the true potential that the other party has. Stupid right?
Current Mood: blah
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